Letting go

17 days left in this wonderland of lakes and snow, forest and swamp.

Today I spent all day packing boxes, cleaning out my closets and throwing out sooo much garbage that I've been hoarding and holding onto for ages.

I usually have a hard time letting go. The first fifteen years of my life I just wished I could travel back in time and never grow up, and I held onto every piece of childhood possible.

But lately I've come to understand the phrase "messy desk, messy mind" on a whole new level.

As you may know, I'm not the most mentally stable person.

And as I've been going to therapy for that, I've also tried harder to find the signs of my "gloomy days" so that I can better control my emotions when those happen.

And one clear sign of a gloomy mind state for me is that my home turns into a horrible mess. Which in turn stresses me out and makes me feel even worse. Cuz brains are fun like that lol.

So now I'm letting go of the past. Both physically and mentally. Because holding onto that much baggage keeps me from healing fully.

In order to make space for new beautiful things and new beautiful memories, I have to first let go of less beautiful ones. It just makes sense.

I'm not saying that I'll ever be a minimalist or anything, but small steps am I right? The less stuff I have, the more I can travel and explore and be free without having to stress about where to store all my belongings. Yay!

And not holding on to every little thing also makes those special things that I do keep feel even more special, don't you think? 💡🌻

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