Never been good at first impressions

I love speaking to people, finding out their deepest desires and darkest secrets, learning word by word to love them and understand everything about the strange worlds inside their brains.

But when it comes to opening my mouth for the first time and making myself look good (because you need to make an impression to be  allowed a deep, meaningful conversation I've learned. sigh), I am miserably horrible.

I always come off either too cold or too excited. Too edgy or too mainstream. Too quiet or too talkative. And I never mean to change so much depending on who I'm talking to, but I can't help it.

I'm complicated. A contradiction walking on two feet. Sometimes one. Sometimes four. Sometimes I like to imagine that I'm walking on no feet at all, but instead floating around like a fluffy little cloud.

So I guess I'm writing this blog to make better sense of myself, so that when I dare to open up more to people and just allow me to be ME, I can formulate my thoughts and opinions a little better.
But to be honest, I don't think I'll ever be able to fully make sense.

That's how I filter the weirdest people into my life--the people who don't need me to make sense in order to love me.

But first and foremost, I need to be one of those cool peeps myself. 🤪🤗

Here am I

My name is Em and I'm a nineteen-year-old film student, who also paints, draws, writes songs, poetry, novels, short stories and dreams of becoming half fish (aka loves free diving and can hold her breath for two minutes. you're welcome for the boisterous fun fact).

I don't eat animals, I love dancing and go on adventures whenever I find a couple spare minutes to escape my day to day life.

Not saying my everyday life isn't absolutely incredible, but you know, I have a hard time sitting still.

Also, the world is amazing, and if I would die before I could see it all I'd have to return to Earth as a very mad little ghost and haunt every person on this planet. Let me travel, ok. If not for me, do it for the planet.

That isn't all I want to say, but that's all I can force you to read before I lose your interest, so yeah, there you go. A little snippet about the creature called Em.

Nice meeting you.

(let's be friends forever and ever!!!??)